Not being able to feel motivated to “get stuff done” without another person home, or some other external pressure (Im a fuckin homemaker… or sahm?) I like homemaker, my kid is getting older, and Idk, but its work all the time to keep the house clean and running. I have to plan my own days out, and success varies. Were it be, I could just clock in and know exactly what to do.
I will make excuses to not go to events places I want to because… there are dishes in the sink? so for some reason in those moments I convince myself I cant go to a fair or something because of house work. which is silly, because my husband does not care if its done or not, he just wants me happy. But, I struggle with this. My personal areas, like my clothes and stuff, end up neglected, because there is absolutley no extral pressure. I just lost my fav pair of warm sweat pants for three weeks. couldnt find them, yesterday saw em hanging on the back of the bathroom door on a hook. i dont remember putting them there. And im tired. so bloody tired.
I stubbornly refuse all meds. But the ADD seriously impacts me. and the depression just- ugh. I have one good day, three sleepy days, then a forced day, then two more sleepy days.
I fight nearly everyday to do the things. I gotta go clean the cat box rn. im here instead. oye. Sunny, warm, spring days help, but its cold and rainy today, the hardest kind of day.
Always tired, like most of the time.
Not being able to feel motivated to “get stuff done” without another person home, or some other external pressure (Im a fuckin homemaker… or sahm?) I like homemaker, my kid is getting older, and Idk, but its work all the time to keep the house clean and running. I have to plan my own days out, and success varies. Were it be, I could just clock in and know exactly what to do.
I will make excuses to not go to events places I want to because… there are dishes in the sink? so for some reason in those moments I convince myself I cant go to a fair or something because of house work. which is silly, because my husband does not care if its done or not, he just wants me happy. But, I struggle with this. My personal areas, like my clothes and stuff, end up neglected, because there is absolutley no extral pressure. I just lost my fav pair of warm sweat pants for three weeks. couldnt find them, yesterday saw em hanging on the back of the bathroom door on a hook. i dont remember putting them there. And im tired. so bloody tired.
I stubbornly refuse all meds. But the ADD seriously impacts me. and the depression just- ugh. I have one good day, three sleepy days, then a forced day, then two more sleepy days.
I fight nearly everyday to do the things. I gotta go clean the cat box rn. im here instead. oye. Sunny, warm, spring days help, but its cold and rainy today, the hardest kind of day.