This hit a little closer to home than it might have to others. When my son was born in December 2019, one of the first nights I had him alone so my wife could visit a friend, I found myself unable to keep him from crying. At one point an intrusive thought of yeeting him down the stairs popped into my mind and horrified me. I wept alongside him and felt terrible. Told my wife and later my therapists about it.
Even though these thoughts can be normal in high stress/mental fatigue situations, it was still unnerving. Usually, my intrusive thoughts involve only harming myself. I felt comfort knowing that I would never act on it.
Honestly I think these thoughts are normal to have at any time, at least for me. I ratitonalize it like this: I’m not considering doing something; I’m thinking about something that could happen. They’re intrusive!
This hit a little closer to home than it might have to others. When my son was born in December 2019, one of the first nights I had him alone so my wife could visit a friend, I found myself unable to keep him from crying. At one point an intrusive thought of yeeting him down the stairs popped into my mind and horrified me. I wept alongside him and felt terrible. Told my wife and later my therapists about it.
Even though these thoughts can be normal in high stress/mental fatigue situations, it was still unnerving. Usually, my intrusive thoughts involve only harming myself. I felt comfort knowing that I would never act on it.
Honestly I think these thoughts are normal to have at any time, at least for me. I ratitonalize it like this: I’m not considering doing something; I’m thinking about something that could happen. They’re intrusive!
After working with my therapist, I also understand them to be normal. I appreciate that I don’t have these kind of thoughts anymore about my son!