It’s clearly in retaliation to shut me up about abuse at the facility. It makes zero sense, even the process server thought it was ridiculous.

But I have no money, I couldn’t find a lawyer. So now my life is over basically. I’m barely employable as it is. I have thousands in credit card debt, I have tens of thousands in student loans, and I work a part time job and do gig work.

There is no therapy. There is no lawyer. DO NOT FUCKING SAY “just check a low income program in your area!” THEY DONT FUCKING EXIST. I live in a red state which exists to chew people up like me.

I have zero family support. I have zero friends. I have zero help.

The second I can’t pay rent I’m walking into traffic.

At no point in my life has there been help. I called a crisis line last year, was assaulted and lost my job because they forget to give me paperwork after I got out.

“Help” seems to be platitudes. Help seems to pretend that there is something on the other side, when across my life that “it gets better” hope gets fucking yoinked from me like Lucy with the football.

Why the fuck is saying “no” such a bad thing? My family didn’t care when I got diddled, why would they care if I was in the ground?

  • jet@hackertalks.comEnglish
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    3 days ago

    Its not a empty platitude, its a philosophy.

    Worst case scenario, you hitchhike and go live in the wilderness as a hermit. Once you accept that you can handle the worst case scenario, everything else is manageable. Lost your job, no problem - find work elsewhere, pick up cans, day labor, busk, etc. Lost your house, no problem - couch surf, sleep rough (its summer in the norther hemisphere), camp, shelters, friend network. Legal issues, your not alone, lots of people survive going through the system.

    The point is you can control what you can control, everything else you adapt and overcome, let it roll off your back.

    Let me try to express it differently - It’s not that you can get what you want. It’s not that you can control a situation. It’s that it’s ok not to get what you want, it’s ok to not be in control, it’s ok that life isn’t fair. It’s about letting go of attachments to want and desire, and focusing on what you can do with what you have.