Idk if this sounds weird…but I’ve always felt this way because I feel…different?? from people somehow? It’s like I’m a different sort of being…like someone with a brain defect or a subhuman or something. I don’t really know how to explain this. But others are good and real people so it’s acceptable. But for me I “know better” and am defective so this sort of rule doesn’t apply to me. Idk.