It’s my double standard: You’re only human and can make mistakes, it’s ok.
I’m a worthless piece of shit, how the hell I could I possibly be so pathetic that I dropped that damn pencil! Goddamn it I don’t even have control over my own stupid hands how the hell could I be so arrogant to even think I deserve to find love when I can’t even hold a pencil?!
Something like that lol
A: “No listen, you gotta accept compliments some time!” … [later] B: “You’re always so generous and kind, look how you’re trying to help me now!” A: “AAAAAAAH STOP IT!”
Idk if this sounds weird…but I’ve always felt this way because I feel…different?? from people somehow? It’s like I’m a different sort of being…like someone with a brain defect or a subhuman or something. I don’t really know how to explain this. But others are good and real people so it’s acceptable. But for me I “know better” and am defective so this sort of rule doesn’t apply to me. Idk.
I got into an argument with my mom the other day, but I called her today and we resolved it and had a good chat.
It wasn’t like anything major/awful, but it made me feel like crap and now all is good.
So I was feeling this, but things are better now.
